They got into a boat, the waves began to toss over the boat, the disciples thought they were going to perish, Jesus was asleep in the stern, the disciples wake up Jesus and asks him, does he not care that they're about to die, Jesus walks out to the deck and says to the store, "Peace, Be Still" and a calm set over the waters. The disciples wondered, who is this whom even have power over the elements?
I definitely relate more to the disciples in this story. I'm sorry, maybe it's 'cause I'm Black and my people don't have a positive history of being on a boat, but I don't do so well being in the middle of water on a boat. I have a bit of anxiety over it, I'm wanting to see land the whole time and I'm not the kind of swimmer that wouldn't end up growing herself in the OCEAN. SO...yes, a storm is coming, I'm in a little boat, water is coming over the dock, it's dark, raining, the boat is tipping from side to side, I can't find a piece of land to hurry up and swim to...NO, JESUS better wake up! lol.
In life, I'd say that I've been blessed that G-d has given me the vision of the final destination, but the path there is usually very, very dark. Sometimes I do feel like He has brought me somewhere and then, just left. Sometimes my boat gets stuck in someone else's storm and I'm like um...this is not supposed to be my problem and now it is my problem and I didn't even want to be here in the first place, Jesus, so where are you? Please bail me out, lol.
I need to build my trust in G-d. Most recently, I've been praying over some little things, "Oh, Jesus, please have my 2nd session canceled today, I'm just too tired." or "Oh, Jesus, please don't have this mechanic charge me over $50." and Jesus has answered my prayers, however, I don't notice them until much much later. I don't notice them until I've told someone I prayed for something and then they point out, "Hey didn't you pray for that? Jesus is still alive!" I've got to stop that. I need to start noticing that my prayers are being answered because I feel it will help me remember that G-d did hear me and did answer, with a blessing, and then this memory of answered prayers will give me strength to get through a storm without backsliding, being double-minded or simply giving up. I need to trust the Lord. I need to remember the evidence of why I trust the Lord. Because He is alive, He does provide, He is listening and He does answer.
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